This blog is about my mental health which is not very good right now.
Interestingly, May is Mental health awareness month, and I want to share something personal.
I wish I could describe what’s going on with my mental/emotional health or how I feel. Sometimes I feel depressed, and sometimes I feel sad and don’t want to talk to anyone. I can spend a whole day without talking to anyone.
My parents wonder why I don’t want to talk. But, It’s very complex.
I am not able to enjoy things I love like workout or blogging, because I don’t feel like doing them. I used to wake up at 4:55 am, but now I cannot even convince myself to get up at 5:45 am.
There are various things going on with me and I feel helpless with them. I hope to get rid of them soon.
I am subscribed to various newsletters, and recently I received an article which was about Sunday scaries. This is when people feel depressed or stressed out on Sundays. At first, I thought, maybe this is the case with me. But, I feel stressed more frequently (other than Sundays).
I am ambivert outside WP, but now I don’t even want to talk to anyone at all. People at the gym consider me Snobbish, but there I’m much more focused on my workout, and now I don’t even feel like greeting people, because I feel negative energy is consuming me. This was not before, because a few years ago I was more friendly with people (even while being an ambivert).
I started blogging in 2021 because I wanted an escape, it helped me with my mental health, and now I suddenly feel that I cannot write a blog.
Unlike some people, I don’t blog randomly, I work on my blogs very hard and I share researched blogs. Now, with my current mental state, I don’t want to write for the sake of showing up. I would rather write a blog whenever I feel a strong connection with the topic.
So, I would like to take a short break from writing. Meanwhile, you can read my other blogs. I have written 120+ and I am sure you haven’t read them all. I am also updating my previous blogs in the meantime.
Right now, I don’t feel like smiling, but I hope you do. Stay healthy